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pulmonaryarcheryI've started to become relatively more productive, although my ideas of things to write and create are still not quite complete enough to actually follow through on. I have finally almost ditched my phone for good. It sits in the corner of my room all day underneath a pile of other objects. The only thing I need to figure out is how to sync it to my computer so I can see my text messages and won't be pestered so much for not responding for hours. I fucking hate texting. One of the most annoying things in the world is when someone asks "did you see my text?", as if it was time sensitive, just for it to be something not important at all.
I'm going to start painting again, specifically oil paints this time. I can still access all the modules from the painting class I took in my fall 2024 semester of community college. I had done all the assignments using acrylic paint but I think going through them again would be a good way to get used to oil painting and to help through my current creative rut.
Finished reading A Man For The Asking. Not sure why I expected anything other than erotica from Breillat, but it's written in a very interesting way. I'm impressed that it was written by a sixteen year old because it's more unique than anything most teenagers these days could come up with.
The thin, faint white lines of years old razorblade swipes on my left thigh are visible when the light catches them just right. Usually I don't mind seeing all those old scars, but these ones make my skin look especially odd sometimes.
More to be added here later? Maybe.
Post script:
I was considering bleaching the blonde chunks in my hair lighter. Right now they're at about a level 7. They're bleached over black hair dye and got to that point after two rounds of bleach if I'm remembering correctly. It doesn't feel damaged at all. I also want to redo the dark stripes on the raccoon tail. Considering using blue-black, or simply just dark blue, for that but it's just so dark that it might stand out oddly compared to the rest of my hair, which is a dark 4n brown instead of black because black dye is just so harsh looking. I'm also worried about color bleeding from the dark stripes onto the blonde stripes.
Another thing: I'm so over something always being wrong with me. Whether that be brain-fog or lethargy or extreme depression or anxiety. It keeps me from doing so much. I became very existential over this last night but I can't bring myself to do anything about it. I really feel empty inside most of the time.
I'm going to start painting again, specifically oil paints this time. I can still access all the modules from the painting class I took in my fall 2024 semester of community college. I had done all the assignments using acrylic paint but I think going through them again would be a good way to get used to oil painting and to help through my current creative rut.
Finished reading A Man For The Asking. Not sure why I expected anything other than erotica from Breillat, but it's written in a very interesting way. I'm impressed that it was written by a sixteen year old because it's more unique than anything most teenagers these days could come up with.
The thin, faint white lines of years old razorblade swipes on my left thigh are visible when the light catches them just right. Usually I don't mind seeing all those old scars, but these ones make my skin look especially odd sometimes.
More to be added here later? Maybe.
Post script:
I was considering bleaching the blonde chunks in my hair lighter. Right now they're at about a level 7. They're bleached over black hair dye and got to that point after two rounds of bleach if I'm remembering correctly. It doesn't feel damaged at all. I also want to redo the dark stripes on the raccoon tail. Considering using blue-black, or simply just dark blue, for that but it's just so dark that it might stand out oddly compared to the rest of my hair, which is a dark 4n brown instead of black because black dye is just so harsh looking. I'm also worried about color bleeding from the dark stripes onto the blonde stripes.
Another thing: I'm so over something always being wrong with me. Whether that be brain-fog or lethargy or extreme depression or anxiety. It keeps me from doing so much. I became very existential over this last night but I can't bring myself to do anything about it. I really feel empty inside most of the time.
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Date: 2026-05-04 03:40 pm (UTC)